After years of defiantly lying when he said he never used performance-enhancing drugs, Lance Armstrong admitted in an interview with Oprah Winfrey broadcast Thursday that he doped throughout his cycling career.
Looking nervous and periodically swallowing hard, Armstrong said he used testosterone, cortisone, human growth hormone and the blood booster EPO. But he said he was not the ringleader of the doping program on his Tour de France-winning teams or used any drugs that other riders didn't.
He called his doping regimen simple and conservative, rebutting the claim by the U.S. Anti-Doping Agency that the drug program on his Tour de France-winning teams was "the most sophisticated, organized and professionalized" doping scheme in the history of sports.
Armstrong remained dry-eyed throughout the 90-minute program. The second part of the interview will be broadcast tonight at 9 on Winfrey's network, OWN. He apologized to several people, including his former masseuse, Emma O'Reilly, one of the people he tried to crush when they claimed he had doped.
Regarding his relentless pursuit of victories, he said: "It's a major flaw, and it's a guy who expected to get whatever he wanted and to control every outcome. And it's inexcusable. And when I say there are people who will hear this and never forgive me, I understand that. I do."
He also said he had been a bully his whole life, before contradicting himself a minute later, saying he became a bully only after he resumed his cycling career following a fight with cancer.
When Winfrey asked if his urine samples from the 1999 Tour retroactively tested positive for EPO, he said yes. When she pressed him about O'Reilly's claim that Armstrong received a backdated prescription from a team doctor after he tested positive for cortisone at the 1999 Tour, he also said yes.
What he did not do was delve into the details of his doping, failing to explain how it was done or who helped him do it. He said he was not comfortable talking about other people when asked about the infamous Italian sports doctor, Michele Ferrari, his former trainer who is now serving a lifetime ban for doping.
When Winfrey asked if he would cooperate with the USADA in building doping cases against others in the sport, he masterfully skirted the question.
But it doesn't really matter what Armstrong told Winfrey, at least according to anti-doping officials who hold the key to Armstrong's future as a professional athlete.
Armstrong's reason for coming clean was not to unburden himself of the deception he fought to keep secret for so long. It was to take the first step toward mitigating the lifetime ban from Olympic sports that he received from the USADA last fall, according to people close to him who did not want their names published because they wanted to stay in Armstrong's good graces.
Anti-doping officials need to hear more from Armstrong than just an apology and a rough outline of his doping. They need details. And lots of them.
"Anything he says on TV would have no impact whatsoever under the rules on his lifetime suspension," said Travis Tygart, the USADA's chief executive.
Armstrong, 41, wants to compete in triathlons and in running events again, but is barred from many of those events because they are sanctioned by organizations that follow the World Anti-Doping Code.
In the end, though, Armstrong seemed to understand that his actions and lies were abnormal, even in a sport that was rife with doping during the time he dominated it.
Winfrey asked him if he ever felt his doping was wrong, and he answered no, then added that he realized that was scary.
When she asked him if he had ever felt bad about his doping, he said no, then said, "Even scarier."
Winfrey then asked, "Did you feel in any way that you were cheating?" He said, no, "That's the scariest," and went on to explain that he had even looked up the word "cheat" in the dictionary once. He found it to be, "gaining an advantage on a rival or foe," and convinced himself that he was not cheating because all the top riders used drugs.
"I will spend the rest of my life trying to earn back trust and apologize to people," he said.